I hate to be size S and a half!

So I was shopping around Orchard just now getting all the things I needed for school. Got quite a bit of stuff actually. Started from Taka where I bought a can opener for $19.90. I was contemplating between the $15.90, $16.90 and this one. Figured the most expensive (of the cheapest lot) looked the most legit lol. So yea I bought it  in the end. When I told my mum about it, she was like, 'better guard this can opener with your life ah. Don't anyhow lend other people then later it goes missing' Yea then I went to Watsons, Sasa and Daiso to get the remaining stuff. And I got a mini pink chopping board! hehehe it's super adorable! Anyway, after that I just shopped around Ion since I still had a little time left and didn't really feel like walking back so early. So I went to Uniqlo and searched for the body shaper thingy that Sharon was raving about. It's basically like a pair of tights which you wear to make your tummy look flatter/ass lifted. ah you get the drift. As I was searching for my size, it finally dawned on me that I didn't know what size I was:/

Everytime I go to shops and get bottoms (as in pants/shorts), I'm always stuck in a dilemma as to whether I should get S or M. US 4 or 6. UK 8 or 10. EUR 36 or 38. It always ends up with S being too small and M being too big to fit. And that is why I prefer wearing skirts/dresses because I can just get S all the time and it'll fit (just like all my tops) simple. Seriously, why aren't there boutiques that cater to in between girls like me! Girls who are S and a half! I feel super disproportionate now that I think about it hahaha! It's so difficult to find fitting bottoms because of this problem and I just end up choosing the easy way out and stock up on one piece clothes. So I guess the only thing I can do is make my body fit into the traditional S or M right sigh. So yes I shall keep working out till I look like a more healthy version of those TheoryofSeven blogshop models. ohmy I think they're really pretty. Especially their thick makeup. I really like it!

This is my favourite model! And she has really nice hair! But I don't think I can pull it off (as yet). wait till I slim down and get a sharper face. hehehe! ok gotta admit she looks a little too skinny here though. My aim shall be a beefier(just a little) version of her hehe. Btw, I really like theoryofseven.com's clothes. A pity I squandered my money shopping from qoo10.sg, which obviously isn't as awesome. Lesson learnt though. I'll save up and buy lesser pieces (but definitely better quality and prettier) 

Anyway, just a little note to people who were subjected to my emo rants/tweets and mood swings these few days. I apologise:/ I guess it's just me reacting to the fact that I'm leaving so soon. And frankly, I fear coming back after I've left. I had a pretty hard time adjusting back to life here when I first returned. What with the change in the dynamics of some of my relationships, and the absence of friends I have always relied on as pillars for support. I just hope that when I come back again in December, everything will still more or less be the same this time round (since I've alr came to terms with the fact that my closest friends will not always be with me physically) 

And lastly, a little part of me hopes that the empty spot will not be filled till my permanent return.