Attaining Nirvana

I made salmon with vegetarian oyster mushroom sauce today. Was supposed to make teriyaki salmon. But seeing to how the expiry date was July 2011, I obviously changed my mind. And really. idk why that bottle of Mizkan Teriyaki Sauce was still sitting in the fridge. When it's been expired for 10 months. hmmmm:/ This is just like my goodies from Kee Wah (bakery from Hong Kong, just like Bengawan Solo). It's still sitting in my kitchen. when the expiry date's like April.. heh. I bought those goodies because Mak and Alissa were so busy piling their baskets and I seemed so unconcerned about buying back souvenirs/food for the family. So I bought some. Well, see where all these souvenirs are ending up? the bin. yea haha. that's why I'm not really good with peer pressure sometimes. heh. oops:/

I guess its just my personality. I don't really like to be forced into doing something that I don't believe in just because others are doing it or just because 'you told me to'. Idk. Maybe that worked last time when I was a kid and I took the words of higher authority really seriously. Like I would obey even if I didn't understand why I had to do it or give in. Maybe its this feminine/womanly 6th sense thing coming out. Somehow, I just have this gut feeling wrt when to panic and when I should just go with the flow because somehow, I know that things would straighten out in the end. strange right? Like the case for A Levels. I was on the verge of dying a horrible death, seeing to merely minimal improvements from CTs to Prelims. And how despite trying so many different methods of writing, my Lit essays were still crappy (and I just couldn't see light). But somehow, I don't know why I didn't panic as much. Initially, I thought I had given up. Seriously, compared to my peers (Nurul, Aditi, Andrew etc), my machine was slowing down. I was ailing. But somehow there was just this force in me that kept me going (at my own pace), seeing me through A levels. I knew that everything was gonna be alright. All I had to do was continue with what I was doing and survive that 3 weeks. I didn't give myself additional pressure, get extremely depressed/worried over why my lit essays were B/C standard. I guess this isn't the best advice to give any J2. Hahahah imagine me telling them this, "Just hear that voice in you. If you think and know you'll be alright, you'll be alright. No use cramming so much. Don't panic so much. Take it easy." Lolol please don't. But uh, yea that was kinda what happened to me:) true story.

So I'm about to fulfill pseudo mum obligations again. Gotta take the Sister to ballet. And probably hang around Raffles City later heh! A phone conversation with Andrew yesterday was particularly heartwarming. He's got to be the sweetest guy (at least to me) ever! Really glad to have him as a friend:D