You

So I'm watching Sam sleep as I blog. Not sure if I'm supposed to wake her up. Because we're supposed to meet Johan and Man at CDV like 22 mins ago.. hmmm. but the thing is, it's pretty cold outside now and I don't really wanna go out or up for that matter. Don't wanna disappoint or upset. And I just heard my favourite song of all time. people who know me should know. hahahah! (as in female friends and Andrew) man I miss Andrew. so dearie if you see this, please feel touched hehehe!

tonight~ we are young~

Brings back so many memories of that night. I know thinking such thoughts is not right of me. I am not who I was then. Wrong time, wrong place perhaps.

that was probably the best night of my life. When I felt accepted and not left behind for once. Especially after my peers were beginning to move ahead and I was stagnant, probably slowly slipping. The weeks before were horrible. I heard good news, but none pertaining to me. I had to feel happy for them, but deep down, I was envious, sometimes jealous. I thought it unfair somehow. Though that was definitely not justified. I probably deserved what I got. I mean, you reap what you sow no? Finally, I felt the temporary warmth I needed and that I was not neglected. There was something for me out there. Together with my university acceptances that night(or morning), I cried tears of joy.

Many people didn't know how much that night meant to me. They probably thought of me as a frivolous, flighty individual, not to be taken seriously (because how affected could you have been by one incident especially under such circumstances)

But really, from the bottom of my heart, I thank you for being part of it. And for proving to me that I was not as worthless as I felt I was those few weeks.