Sigh, spoke to the BF about my dilemma because I just wanted him to say what I wanted to hear in the form of 'his advice' But turns out, he's just another extention of my conscience and I just feel even worse now!!
Ok so, remember how I planned to work for a while in Singapore in order to earn my trip to London? Well, when I came back this week, the inertia just grew so much and I just decided I was better off at home. I mean yea being the kiasu person that I am, I already scheduled interviews, sent emails and all to apply for jobs. Even secured myself a stint at Zara again lol. Only problem is that they decided to post me to either MBS or Marina Square when all I had in mind was somewhere near home like Taka, Ion or 313. So when the Recruit Express girl called me, of course I was a little reluctant because even though City Hall/Bayfront aren't considered far (because I would just come across as a prissy princess if that was my complaint-.-), it is still far lor ok. Compare having to take the MRT vs walking to work. Why would I want to spend extra on transportation! Yes I am giam like that. So uh, I told her I left my EZ link card in Switzerland and there are no spare EZ link cards at home which is partially true (the part about there not being spares at home since I obviously have mine lol). I swear I could feel her eyeballs roll to the back of her head. And also, since my parents were going away on a cruise next Monday, I wouldn't have anyone to send me or pick me up from work especially if my shift ends past 11 and idk if I would still be able to catch the last train home. Happened to me once at RC!! Had to run to catch the last train ok!
So anyway, I decided I was going to reject the offer tomorrow if the girl called. My dad agreed too. He said he would just give me pocket money anyway for London. So I thought I would speak to Taka to make myself feel better since I was half expecting him to say something along the lines of "whatever makes you happy baby". BUT NO WOR. HE SAID THAT IF HE WAS IN MY POSITION, HE WOULD WORK FOR THAT SGD600. Sigh, now I feel so conflicted again! I don't want to sound spoilt but since I'm coming back for just a month, why can't I just enjoy my time at home. Plus I really really really don't want to burn my weekends especially when I don't have much time here. WHY CAN'T HE UNDERSTAND THAT! AND WHY AM I GETTING PISSED AT HIM WHEN I WAS JUST TURNING TO HIM FOR ASSURANCE AND ADVICE.
Am I asking for too much to just relax for a month and gym and catch up with some friends. Frankly, I think I've done enough helping my dad save 10% of my tuition (approximately SGD 2500) last semester by working in school and having to endure all types of rubbish that I am still obliged to be silent about since I'm continuing with this program next semester. But I want to go to London in July (and my dad thinks I'm staying with friends so accommodation is free. Uh no, the most I can do is book an airbnb apartment and get cheaper accommodation) and then I want to treat Taka to a nice getaway in Geneva on his birthday in November. So I should work right? But I have around SGD300 in my bank right now. Plus probably around SGD700 for this year's angpaos I'm estimating. So that'll make SGD1000. So ok imma break everything down
Flight: SGD200
Accommodation (shared with Taka): SGD 400
Expenses: SGD200
Total for London: SGD800
Eastwest Hotel: SGD350
Total I need to raise: SGD1150
Eh actually, that's alright leh. All my dad needs to give me is min SGD150 and of course (I hope) he'll give me more. But see, if I work for even 2 weeks, I'll make an additional SGD 768 (if I deduct CPF and what not), I should still have around SGD 600 and that will make a lot of difference right.
Sigh I guess I'll just accept the job with a heavy heart fml (unless I read the fine print of the contract and I decide I am better off lounging away at home)
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