But anyway, as always, like a little whiny girl, my purpose for this update was to rant:( You see, we were supposed to go to IKEA tmr. A friend of ours mentioned on Monday that she could take us and I was pretty looking forward to it. Because erm Taka's room is very ill equipped/minimally furnished There isn't even a wardrobe. So we've been planning to go to IKEA since forever to finally get him some much needed storage space. And only IKEA sells affordable duvet sets. So we were thinking of getting it from there. So I had this entire shopping list planned out and and I did my study schedule according to our IKEA trip (I even took the effort to colour code the word 'IKEA' in my schedule ok. Yellow for 'I' and 'E' and Blue for 'K' and 'A') But anyway, long story short, she just told us she can't take us to IKEA anymore because she has work to do tmr, but offered to take us next week instead. I hope it materialises because I really really really want to go to IKEA and idk if Taka sees the urgent need for an IKEA shopping trip, but I really think it's necessary.
But I'm still kinda upset about the sudden change in plans. I guess one thing about me is that I HATE being put through last minute changes. If I'm already mentally prepared to do something, I jolly well do it, whether or not I like it. Like I was already psyched to go, already planned to complete a certain amount of work before letting myself leave for the entire morning (and afternoon). And now everything has to change, just because we made ourselves dependent on someone else and we can't do shit about it even if she suddenly becomes unavailable. Maybe this is something I got from my parents. We never liked to depend on other people for favours. Because it means a loss of freedom and the feeling that we owe it to someone. And that's why I was never raised by my grandparents or extended family members, much less a maid. My working parents would rather put me in a childcare centre, before I was old enough to stay at home by myself. Same goes for my sister, and we were happy this way. Rawr idk why I'm so affected by this and how I got to this topic lol. But note to self (YET AGAIN), try not to depend on other people as much as possible. Because then you're kinda at their mercy (whether intended or not), and while you've inconvenienced others with your request, you would have also in a way, inconvenienced yourself.
I learnt it the hard way (also not my choice la. That fucker of an ex boyfriend was extremely dependent on his friends so I tagged along and got implicated too-.- Ok now I'm getting emotional AND vulgar wtf. But anyway yea. What did I end up with, some guy who thinks we owe the world to him because he gave us occasional lifts and had us over for dinner a few times. To be fair, I'm pretty sure 'fucker of an ex boyfriend' returned his favours in the form of cigarettes and being there for him as a friend (and in my opinion, as a minion at times-.-) And my things getting stolen because they were placed in the garage in ANOTHER of his friend's place and they irresponsibly decided not to lock the garage door. Wait are you stupid or are you stupid. It wasn't just my things btw. I think 5 other people stored their stuff there and I suffered the least amount of damage alr. Can't imagine if my clothes were stolen instead omg)
So yea, lesson learnt and I need to get my driver's license (maybe that's the root of the problem lol) Ok gonna get back to Human Capital
No comments:
Post a Comment